I don't understand what just happened.

You spend three months ignoring me completely.  You show up in support of our friends, see me, then hug me like everything's fine, asking, out of courtesy, how I am.  Then you spend the rest of the time not speaking to me.

I don't get it.  I guess the hug means you still want to be friends.  But if that were true, then wouldn't you have wanted to speak to me?  Wouldn't you have pulled me aside just for a moment to say, "Hey, can we talk?"  You had plenty of opportunity!  Why did you not jump at the chance?

I am so utterly confused.  And frankly, more hurt than I was before.  I just don't know what to think anymore.

All I've ever tried to do is be your friend.
All I've ever tried to do is have you be my friend.
I just wanted some help.
I'm sorry.

I don't know where I went wrong.

I just want to go home where I know I'm loved.

Why are we so good at being friends and so bad at dating each other?

Because we're meant to be friends.

But why are meant to be just friends?

This sucks.

F my life.